refurbish
Existing through adulthood has felt like a perpetual sprint; it is strange to be in a constant state of running, running, running. There is no release to that type of tension, as there is no room for water breaks or breathes of air — I have felt trapped in this repetitive motion of rush and there seems to be no silence or end.
What makes this the most strange is all of the efforts that I put towards living leisurely, whether that be crafts, meditation, cooking, taking photographs — even still I cannot seem to slow down and actualize my moments.
It seems as if there is always this chase for changes that can be incorporated to alter these feelings: the never ended notion of, “if I had this,” or “when I am here,” — I am always reaching for more. There always has to be an addition to make my life and mind more rested. Is this real? Is anyone else stuck?
Although I am held inconvenienced by these intrusive thoughts, I must say things are not all that bad, obviously — I am so thankful to have what I do and to live as comfortably as I am. I have made the best progression towards opening my Etsy shop, and sold my first item! How amazing! I will link that here in case you’re interested in browsing.
Lastly, my first Youtube video has been made live. I am learning so much about editing and recording! It has been such a wholesome experience and I love that about exploring new hobbies.
And if you feel inclined and interested, I post new clothes on my Depop on Friday’s. Not every Friday.. but as many Friday’s as I can.
life is hectic and I work two jobs so I am tryin my best
as always, thank you for all the love and support you give towards my creative pursuits
